Nearing to finish the second lap of the race

We’re all excited, proud about our ventures. Now, that we are nearing to finish the second lap of the race. Some of us will be job hunting while others who already got jobs will be looking to settle down. However, we can still refer to the two laps we’ve pass- drove from time-to-time as a reflection.

Everyone is a witness that we have been through ups and downs. We hustled and struggled. Some of us fall and picked themselves up. Some could not rise again. It has been the survival of the fittest.

Some have seen the light…..they are now working, sum are still job hunting. Anyway that is part of life. We can do the same thing but the repercussions can be different. Anything is possible. Hence, life is like a race, where you need to focus on the curves and caution signs ahead. “Don’t look at others because your car might tumble”. Unless you been down that road before then you can assist your counterparts.

Change your life for the better!

Accept what you did wrong and try to do better next time. No need to punish yourself forever. In fact, accepting your mistakes is the only way to make them disappear. Maybe you got hurt by somebody. Happens. Just accept it and deal with it. People are making mistakes and if you can accept that for yourself, accept it for your friends too. In the end, all you need from them is their love.

New things you want to attract into your life. Habits are powerful. Join their energy for your own good. Don’t wait for other people to impose discipline on you. Start early. Create your own discipline. Although it sounds a little bit harsh, self discipline is a facilitator for many things in your life. It’s hard to get but great to have

Reach out. Don’t be afraid. Establish new contacts. The worst thing that may happen to you is to be rejected. Well, if that’s the case, move on. The reward of having true, long-lasting friendship is worth all the potential rejection. Shaking your comfort zone will often create a lot of value in your life. If you’re not satisfied with your job, just get a new one. The pitfall of not having money for a limited period of time is temporary, get over it.

Student complaints.

Student complaints about universities have risen by a third in the last year and will rocket next year when tuition fees rises up again, The student complains because the academics are little but politicians; out for their own best interests. Of interest is that the largest volume of complaints comes from postgraduates, international students and mature students. Why would this be, is it that these types are looking for an education but what actually come to light hardly look like anything close.

Having been to one of the best Universities in the country I can safely say that higher education is a scam, at the undergraduate and postgraduate levels. In some cases the lecturers were giving lectures that were 10 years old, and this was in a rapidly changing field like Engineering. But worse is postgraduate research, where one can be screamed at, bullied and the like, by these expert academics. All the institution will do is sideline the student and do everything in its power to extend their internal complaints procedures, seemingly hoping the student will give up.

People would be surprised if they could see what goes on in these academic institutions. It is mostly playground politics and protecting the Institution. Very little in higher education is intended for the student, they are simply a commodity to keep the establishment safe for when retirement looms.

My SundaY Morning

I dragged myself out of bed a bit early on Sunday morning, knowing the light would be great after a cold night, followed by a sunny morning. We get these wonderful fogs if you don't have to commute in them here in the autumn that are a photographer's dream.

The window of opportunity is very small. Too soon and the fog is too heavy, a few minutes later and the mist is burned away by the warmth of the sun. I knew where I wanted to go, a spot I have gone to before, with little traffic and great views to the east. I was hoping the light would not be cold and on the blue/gray side, and I was rewarded with this warm glow penetrating through the fog banks. I was rushing from one photo op to the next, so oblivious to time that I was almost late for church.

I only made it in time because the light was getting too strong for good photos, and I was only a few kilometers away. On my next sunny day without work, I will be out again, camera in hand, only this time, looking for the magic light as well as the colour in the leaves that is just now starting to splash on.

Watch this space.

I have had many people saying this and sometimes get confused if they are threatening me or what. Usually this will appear at the end of ma friends’ texts. But I have just realized that it’s another way to promise something. Like my friend when we play cards she would say, “today I will bit you, watch this space”.

 As we are nearing to the end of our academic careers there is a lot coming up, though, of course each has their own goals but some of us will join the industry, some will take a break (of which I don’t encourage any of us to), some will run their own businesses, just watch the space!!!

  I have been processing this for a very long time now that as I have been living a student life since I started schooling now it’s about time I adventure other aspects of life which some I have been introduced into, like working, other things I would like to have a piece of are: workouts, sports (soccer, cricket and athletics), traveling, among other things. There are number of other things I want to venture into but watch the space.

  Please be patient and watch this space for other exciting things I want to do, watch out the developments and fantastic ventures I am about to undertake. Watch this space!!!!

MY NEW BLACKBERRY!

All this new technology is driving me nuts. I could have said "No" but the offer was too good to turn down. I have had my Nokia cell phone for three years and I still am not able to text with it, can not download photos. I have never been on the Internet with it and have just used it as a business phone. I got a call from my service provider wanting to sell me data packages etc. etc. etc. Not interested. Then they offered me a free up-grade as well as grandfathering my very old and very economical plan if I signed on for another three years. I have never been dissatisfied with the network and actually find that it works rather well. I have no plans to change providers so a free phone was a no brainer. I am now the proud  owner of a Blackberry Curve 8520 phone. I struggled all evening getting the settings right and trying to figure out how to get my SIM card out of the old phone and into the new one.

Like all new 'stuff', there is a learning curve. I just hope I do not miss any important calls because I have the phone on silent mode by mistake, or have the darn thing play Beethoven's 5th in the middle of church because I thought I had it on silent mode. No guarantees though because I have already taken a goofy photo by mistake. Good thing I do not know how to download it to this blog. It is not very flattering

My favourite Cat in the Hat book

I've been hearing about this topic and reading about it since i was very young in my early young age. Cat in the Hat book must have been when I was in pre-school. I used to enjoy reading the books because they were funny and entertaining, the crazy story lines captured one’s imagination.

 And there was a movie based on the Cat in the Hat book which was released on the big screen in 2003; I had an opportunity of watching the movie and see the story come to life right in front of me. Cat in the Hat books have been around for over 50 years and hopefully they will be still around for generations to come in order for children to enjoy them.

Maybe I should give myself a chance to read one of the books soon, who knows the book might bring out the child in me. I think every child needs to read the Cat in the Hat books. It’s a good book to start reading to children at a young age already. Since they've heard the book so many times already, it’ll be easier for them to start reading alone.  The words are easy to sound out and  some of the most common words in the English language.

I like, I like

Discovering new music, stretching when I get up in the morning, playing tug o' war with my Labrador, buying clothes on sale, depositing paychecks, sending out mail the old fashion way, reading a magazine in a corner at Borders, cracking the spine of a new book, dancing 'til it hurts, incest-free Greek mythology, gossiping with girlfriends, multi-colored pens, saying "I know, right?!", knowing I matter, dirty limericks, belly laughs, (sitting in) stilettos, painting my nails, staying in bed for ungodly hours, being in my element, finding money in my pocket, tangible pictures, stickers and post-its, savoring dessert like it's my first and last...

Why I have conversations?

Conversations permit for an exchange of information to take place; through conversations we are able to learn new information and share knowledge. Conversations contribute to the intellectual growth of a person; the more we know the better we become accustomed to our environment.

We all have conversations simply because as human beings it is important to have some sort of communication in order to understand what the next person is thinking.
Conversations nowadays take place not just face to face but also through various mediums such as social media tools. I personally engage in conversations with people usually because I want to know what they opinion is regarding a certain issue, or may be because I want to know more about them.

Regardless what the reason may be behind why I have conversations I feel that having conversations is the way of life. As humans we all have the need to engage in conversations each day may it be at work or school or even at home.

My bucket list / 100 things to do before I die

There are many things I would like to achieve during my life time, but I don’t think that I will be able to mention a hundred. These include in no particular order obtaining my Master/ Honours Degree, travelling the world, going on a road trip across at least three provinces in the country.

A helicopter ride would be quite an adventure or even a hot air balloon ride, visit the Zambezi River, ride a quad bike, go on a yacht, go on a ocean cruise, establish my own successful business, make exercising a routine, get married and have children, see the seven wonders of the world, have a feature written about me in a magazine, make a life changing difference to someone’s life.
Go on a real shopping spree meaning I would have to spend about R10 000 on shoes and clothes in just one day.

These are just a few of the things I would like to undertake before I die.

Dirty word

It always boggles my mind when women refuse to identify with the word 'feminist,' as if to claim it would surely mean the end of herself. As if being a feminist would denigrate the very concept of femininity. As if it would mean giving up held doors and chairs, sacrificing free drinks, and bras.

I AM a feminist because I believe a woman should not be earning 75 cents to a man's dollar.
I AM a feminist because rape victims should not have to relive her attack in trial.
I AM a feminist because I should have my cake and eat the damn thing, too. Counting calories is lame.
I AM a feminist because I believe, someday, I might have a son. No son of mine will ever come to expect, assume, and demand supremacy simply because he has a penis.
I AM a feminist because there are still such things as female infanticide and genital mutilation.
I AM a feminist because I love women just as much as I love men, I love stiletto just as I love watching a bloody brawl, and I love lace as much as I love sweats. I should not have to choose.

So yeah, I like my doors held, my drinks free, and my breasts perky
...but I can open my own doors, buy my own drinks, and my breasts will still be perky.

I am a feminist because I am human.

My big fat BIG dream

My big fat BIG dream would be to travel the world on an unlimited budget. I have never travelled outside of the South African borders in my entire life. My trip would have to commence right here in Africa therefore my first stop would be Zambia; merely because I would love to witness the Zambezi falls with my own eyes, as I have heard so many accounts of it.

The next stop would have to be Madagascar; it seems to be a beautiful island with wonderful creatures and beaches. My journey would lead me to the continent of Asia, where I would begin with Thailand. Thailand seems to be a beautiful country with a rich heritage and various national monuments. I would then possibly visit China and India which are next door to each other in order to experience their ambient culture and the way they live. I would also make a stop at United Arab of Emirates and visit Dubai to experience the glitz and glamour the city is known for.

I would then travel to the continent of South America, and the county I would visit is Brazil. I would make it to Brazil in time for the Rio Carnival as I have heard that it is the best time to visit the country.

I would then visit the U.S.A.; there are so many cities I would like to visit there. These cities include Los Angeles, Miami, New York City; the concrete jungle where dreams are made of.
My last stop would be Europe and the countries I would visit include France, Italy, Greece, England, Germany, Spain, Scotland and Switzerland.

I would like  to have the opportunity to be exposed to numerous cultures and lifestyles in my life, traveling the world is something that I simply have to do in my life time even if it means travelling to simply a few countries.   

Phelokazi is engaged!

I guess growing old(er) isn't so horrible when we have amazing things to look forward to, like one of my oldest friends' beautiful and sweet, sweet, sweet engagement! A little quirky, a lot sweet, and 100% Phelo all the time, Phelo is a lifelong buddy, through and through. We danced on our high school dance team together and we were drawn to each others' biting sarcasm (and, obviously, indubitable charms).

One of my absolute favorite things about Phelo is her unwavering loyalty to not just her friends & family, but her passions. While the rest of us (some begrudgingly) went into tertiary to study commerce, she followed her dreams of becoming a wedding photographer. And, a damn talented one at that. Phelo eventually followed her dreams all the way up to San Francisco, where she busts her ass to be the best photographer, daughter, friend, mother of two Linda Smallz babies, fancy cook, and (now) fiance she can be.  

Conventional is a good fallback position isn’t it?

As human beings we tend to be afraid of the idea to do things differently as we fear being rejected by society. Being different is sometimes a good thing, take for example Lady Gaga; she totally does what she feels like doing and she doesn’t seem to care what other people will think about her. She has generated a huge following over the past few years she has been in the limelight.

Conventional is a good fallback position when you realize that something you wanted to try out for the first time doesn’t seem to work out the way you had anticipated. You can always conform to the accepted standards which people have come to accept as the norm.So conventional doesn’t always work well for other people, being different can lead to various opportunities and experiences.

                                                                     What do you think?

Lessons my mom taught me

Childhood trauma lasts forever. When I was little, she told me I couldn’t point at the moon or else the lady in the moon will cut my ears off. CUT. MY. EAR. OFF. Who the hell says that to an eight year old? She also told me for every grain of rice I leave in my bowl, there will be a pockmark on my future husband’s face. I used to be terrified of this because I was a vain little snotfaced 10 year old kid. and TO THIS DAY, I can’t leave food in a restaurant.

There ain’t no shame in asking. I moved to Cape Town when I was seven years old. and was painfully shy because I didn’t speak the language Afrikaans. My mom used to force me to ask for take-out boxes, water, or utensils from waiters at restaurants. Though I hated when she did that, it really did help build my language skills and brought me out of my shell a little bit. It’s backfired a bit for her; sometimes I can’t seem to stop asking my waiters non sequiturs. Case in point, “Can I get the chicken parmesan and…what color nail polish is that?” My mom’s reaction gets all 0.o, like she wishes she can take it all back.

You cannot chase two rabbits at the same time.

This declaration is arguable as sometimes one can focus on two things or tasks at a time as it depends on how disciplined an individual is. Some people have the capacity to handle numerous tasks at a time; we simply have to remember that we are not all the same.

Some people have to be constantly reminded to not take on more than they can handle as they may struggle to cope when they have too many things happening in their lives. These people may end up not excelling in either task as they were not able to manage their time or resources well.

When you know how to manage your time you gain control. Rather than busily working here, there, and everywhere (and not getting much done anywhere), effective time management helps you to choose what to work on and when. This is essential if you're to achieve anything of any real worth.

I believe that each individual knows what they are capable of ; therefore we shouldn’t allude ourselves by thinking that we can chase two rabbits at the same time when we clearly know that we can’t.

I’ve got problems

I've got problems. Okay, that was redundant and perhaps annoyingly unoriginal, but it bears repeating. I've got problems I don't know how to solve. They've been nagging at me, like stray, errant strands of hair that tickle my bare back and I can never quite get a hold of them. Or like when I walk into a spiderweb at night (which happens more times than I'd like to admit) and I keep grabbing at my face to get it off. Even if I do, there's always that creepy feeling something is clinging to me and I can't do anything about it.

1. Mistaking attention for affection. After 20 odd years, I have yet to cleanly distinguish the two. Though they are not necessarily mutually exclusive, it'd be rather nice to know someone's being nice just to be nice, versus when he's being nice because he can see being nice to me for a long time coming.

2. Knowing when things have run their course. I hate relationship limbo. Or any kind of limbo, really, including the asinine party activity dressed up like an ice-breaker, when in reality everyone cheats a little and actually I'm really good at it. Whether I keep my stead for a little while longer or cut my losses, there's a price for either and both.

3. Doing what is good for me. I suppose this ties in with 1 and 2, but like most problems, it bears repeating (now).

“Nothing is more dangerous than an idea, when you only have one idea”

I agree with the declaration that having one idea is dangerous. What happens if that one idea you have does not work out the way you planned it to? What do you do then?

It is important to have a number of ideas or a backup plan when something doesn’t pan out the way you intended it to. You always have to have another plan so that you are not left stranded, thinking about what you should do next in order to move forward is vital.

Some people have a plan a, plan b and even a plan c when they have an idea. They always prepare themselves for the worst case scenario before hand as there is nothing worse than just standing there when something goes wrong and only try to think of ways to remedy the situation then. Thinking under pressure is something that not everyone is good at.

Therefore I urge you when you have an idea think of more than one way to implement that idea and always have a backup plan. Avoid being caught off guard whenever it is possible

I forgot my dad's birthday this year.

On the surface, it's not so bad. I have a horrible memory to begin with and I haven't seen him in years. Deep down in my daddy's-girl heart, I've never forgotten his birthday before and it makes me wonder if he's ever forgotten about me. Or, if he feels blinding regret for leaving his wife and children while he philandered. Or, if I've punished him enough in my own special way. Or, if the only punishment is on me, like a bad joke someone tells a group but no one laughs, not even a polite smile. Yeah, feels kinda like that.

Most men have their ways of weaving in and out of my life. I just want someone to love with such ferocity and intensity that they either love me back or die trying to escape me. It's been harder than I thought it would be.

Have you figured out the second head fake

 All I understand about what a head fake is, is when a message is intended to articulate a particular meaning, but you understand it differently or have a different perception compared to what the speaker was expecting the listener to grasp or understand. Well I haven’t even figured out the first head fake, but I am expected to know what the second head fake is

An example would be when a lecturer lectures to its students and expects the students to be motivated to reach their goals, but some of the students may grasp something else from the lecture such as; one could discover that they are in the wrong career field or that they want to study further before they go out in to the industry.

Or maybe the second headfake is about discovering what is most important to you? What is the most important thing in your life? Well I think this is a tough question to answer, and I feel that it is hard to pin point just one thing. It looks like I will have to choose three, the first being my family, secondly having a relationship with God, lastly achieving my goals.

Don’t get it twisted

I am a good writer, but I'm also generally lazy and my ineptitude for timely updates is well-known. Don't get it twisted, though; I love blogging. Overall, I follow one rule to writing a sufficiently readable blog post: sit down and open Namhlalicious. And truth be known, I enjoy committing near-suicides online. I like providing a little too much TMI. To help me do that on a more regular basis, go to www.namhlalicious.blogspot.com my blog.  I'm going to start blogging at work.  Full-time work has lent itself to moments of "I want to bludgeon myself with a nunchuck" sentiments. It is at once mindnumbing and...fulfilling? I'm not sure that is the right word, but I like waking up for a purpose. The job is not one I thought I would be holding at 24-years old (apparently, pirate queen of the free world is not a healthy nor realisic goal), but it is one that get me going in the mornings.

I'm appreciative, to say the least, because in our still failing economic time I'm lucky enough to hold a steady job. I didn't always feel this way. The other day, a thirty+ year-old Stanford graduate came in the office to apply for a nonpaying internship. If a over-qualified man has resigned to work for a 24-year old punk like me, I can at least appreciate my"dire" circumstances.

How hard is it to follow instructions?

Seriously it seems like it is the hardest thing in the world. You put up signs or have some rules and people just do what they want with no regard for anything. Oh a school zone 20mph...let me go 45 because I can and who cares I am so cool I don't have to do what anyone tells me.

When i was 13 i got run over by a car in a school zone almost tore my left leg off below the knee, the lady was going about 50 mph i was on a bike, yes i get mad when some butt wipe will not go by the rules and i will go out of my way to make their life hell while they are near me. If you're telling me how to do something or how to get somewhere I can follow directions, but if it's just arbitrary "these are the rules because so and so said" I don't pay attention. I could, but I won't. think it all depends on what the "directions" are and who created/established them. If one doesn't respect the source of them, or the reason behind them, then the likliness of them being followed is low.

 It's sort of like following a recipe for a cake.
The recipe calls for 2 tbs of butter - you lend the recipe to a friend. They make the cake but it does not come out very well and they wonder why! Upon questionning I discovered the friend had used margarine instead of butter. But life's like that! Some people just never learn.

15 minutes of fame!

Being a world famous for only fifteen mins!!! Hectic is it not? Andy Warhol said, “In the future everybody will be world famous for fifteen minutes” – You can’t choose the 15 minutes but why would you be world famous. “15 minutes of fame (or famous for 15 minutes) is an expression which refers to the fleeting condition of celebrity that grabs into an object of media attention, then passes to some new object as soon as people's attention spans are exhausted. It is often used in reference to figures in the entertainment industry and other areas of popular culture” (Wikipedia).

   Online media has presented numerous possibilities for everyone to be world famous, speaking of twitter, facebook, blogs etc one can be famous. Thanks to the blogs now people can text your name on Google and there comes your name (that makes us celebs for even more than 15 mins).

  Other than that the old traditional media: television, radio and the likes can also make you a world’s celeb for a few minutes. I have been on television (on Your Date With Destiny) more than five minutes I guess and that contributed to my celebrity encounter.

  So I fully agree that everyone in future would be world famous for 15 minutes or more but now I think people can choose when and through which media they can be famous

Happy People!

It’s easy to be negative when talking about people of color, but I try to be as positive as possible. And there’s nothing more positive than understanding other people’s deferences, Last year, Ricky Martin made a splash by (finally) coming out. After that, it seemed like Martin was on a perpetual media blitz, with his magazine covers, his book and TV specials featuring his boyfriend, ex-boyfriend and children.  Watching Martin come out was probably less exciting than watching him hide it for all those years, but seeing a hot Latin man comfortable and at peace with himself is important for all the young gays out there.

While we’re on Martin, can we talk about the lack of a prominent out (by any label) rapper and hip-hop star? We get rumors – but no confirmation. It’s all terribly sad, exhausting and unnecessary. Where is the pioneer? I’m hoping that 2012 will give us at least one or two more people of colour who will come out. Although Travan Free's coming out as bisexual. I’m looking forward to seeing a well-made film about being Asian-American, black and Latino. All in all, though, I’m pumped for 2012. Each year brings exciting new scandals, films, works of art and vibrant personalities

A skill set called leadership.

There seems to be an selection of information out there on leadership. Are they born? Are they made? What skills and qualities do they posses? How to become an effective leader? You could probably read yourself blue on all the theories and explanations of what constitutes great leadership.

People are born leaders, you can teach someone the skills of a leader but you cannot teach someone to be a leader. Leader are not necessary educated people, they are people with the skill to change other people to think the way that they think. Leaders don’t earn money for being leaders, but they earn respect from their followers. They are not necessary selected by someone to be leaders but they have the natural instinct to be in the front of everyone and lead. Not everyone can be a leader, some people are born followers and there’s nothing wrong with being a follower because leaders need followers who will support them. Leaders don’t have to make decision, but they facilitate decision process so that the desirable outcome can be reached. Leaders are people who see everyone’s success as their success, because if one part of the team is not putting its weight than the entire team will suffer.

FLU!

Although I get my flu shot every fall, I still manage to contract at least one nasty bug each winter. The shot reduces my chances of getting influenza up to 90%, but i don't have to stop there. I can significantly improve the odds of staying healthy all winter until spring time by following a few simple rules.

First, I need to know what im up against. In addition to the flu, the average adult suffers anywhere from one to three respiratory illnesses a year, nearly all of them caused by viruses and most of them occurring in the fall and winter. Winter also tends to bring out the kind of bad habits--from overindulging at parties to letting exercise routines slide--that make the body more susceptible to infection.

The reason we get colds in winter isn't directly linked to cold weather, of course. It's that we spend more time indoors with other people and their germs. If you really wanted to make sure you never suffered another cold, you would avoid all contact with other people as well as anything they had ever touched. And you would certainly abandon those ritual handshakes and cheek pecks. Why? Respiratory viruses, including those that cause flu, are highly contagious and can survive for hours on skin, furniture, doorknobs and the like.

To a very special friend

I have been balancing trying to understand the difficulty of feelings I have for you,
Guess this did not help anyhow but hurt me it has enlightened this personality in me that I did not know of a personality which resonates regrets for not knowing I have someone like you. I can’t help but hurt about this whole thing. The hurt I have inside is not an inflicted pain, but a touching pain. The kind of hurt that brings knowledge of the amazing things in my life.
The hurt that can be healed with lots of love, care and tender only someone of your calibre can give, Someone like you is not easy to find, That is why I wish nothing but the best for you, your  friends they always tell me what an awesome friend you are ,But I really have to say It’s hard for me to understand but I am all right. you’ve got a winning style that some people never learn , If you give away a smile then you get two back in return .Then you’ll be all right

Rock journalism

 Rock journalism is people who can’t write interviewing people who can’t talk for people who can’t read”. On the other hand Wikipedia talks about music journalism as a criticism and reportage about music which began in the eighteenth century as comment on what is now thought of as 'classical music'. This aspect of music journalism, today generally classified as music criticism, comprises the study, discussion, evaluation, and interpretation of music and its performance. However, I eventually came up with this opinionated authoritative information about what I think RJ’s is. Though it nearly turned me into one as well, hence the hustles I went through. This took me a couple of hours thinking about this, processing, googling but all I divulge was almost about Frank Zappa’s quotations and comments which basically was no help after all because it is just what it says on the topic. However I think Rock journalism are actually worthless people seeing that they can not do more than two things simultaneously. Zappa said that “most rock journalism is people who can’t write, interviewing people who can not talk, for people who can’t read. These are the people who write for the literate people and look for the relevant information for the right target audience. They know where exactly to find information and how they go about delving the information that they want.

List your top 200 achievements

People who are oriented towards achievement, in general, enjoy life and feel in control, being motivated keeps me dynamic and give me self-respect which help me, achieve my objectives. My best achievment is that I think all my friends and family really know that I love them. That they know they can always come ask my help, and that I will do as much as I can.

My overall in my life
primary school
secondary school/Matric /grade 12
career,
family,
kids,
friendship
to be born
able to walk
to talk
listen
hear
do things for myself
sharing
write
play
make friends
still breathing
grow
wake up
work
the list is endless

When I simulate and visualize my goals, I visualize the exact achievement of the specifics as if they have already been accomplished.

What motivate me?

The motives I have are:

I’m motivated by certain aspects of life such as learning curiosity and making a difference in other people’s lives. Every day I believe I should start something new and see outcome after

Every individual’s motives are important because they drive one to a particular path in life as it is said that if you going nowhere in particular any road will take you somewhere.

Music play an essential role in my motives (all types of music = r n b dominating though). Something about music it can be real powerful. If I hear a good song that I like it motivates me

Faith and hope motivate me that one day I will achieve my goals. Starting from zero there is nothing to lose, though I have lost some things that had value in my life but that couldn’t stop me from adventuring, I believe that everyday’s new beginnings.

Among other things that motivates me is love…. to love someone and being loved back in return really takes me to the sky, actually a motive is driven by love.

And all the successful businesswomen who started their business/es from scratch and made it to the top keep me motivated because that signifies the potential of being successful in my career endeavors. Funny enough, some of them had to start from home (in the garage) but now they have international businesses.

I HATE MONDAYS!

I have a day off at work so I tried to be super productive today.  I’ve tidied the house, swept and mopped all the floors and even managed to wash all the bathroom rugs and mats.

Later today at 15:30 my cousin (Sive) is going to take me out to the local home store to get some planting mix and plants for the patio planters.  Then after we going to go over to Waterfront so that I can buy a present for my cousin (Sive) since it is her birth day today.  I’m so blessed that she loves reading and probably she will read through this blog and find that I mentioned her born day and she is turning 13 years old today. I honestly believe that kids that love to read are just going to do better in school in general because it is not a struggle for them.

Tomorrow, I have a million little things to do on my never ending to-do list.  I need to get w/ the paperwork done for my upcoming business report.  I need to figure out the mess in the filling with the contract workers (it’s never simple with them).  Then I need to settle down and get some studying in for my upcoming state boards.  My Manager was a sweetheart for me this weekend and Saturday after she got off work we drove up to Greenpoint so she could show me where I will be going for my next meeting.  So now I know where the hotel is, the kit rental sport and the testing facility.  I’m starting to get a little nervous, but I think it will be okay. Hope this week treats me good.



VERRY DRAINED!!!!!!!!



Write a list: the 10 most unexpected consequences of being online.

I spend lot of hours online, it is not about social media but also doing research for school project, searching for jobs and checking out accommodation ads. Because of this great World Wide Web we spend so much time online. Searching and engaging seems to also come with some unexpected consequences (both bad and good).

 My list of some of those consequences:

1Online banking, Transacting money through online banking have changed paying bills which could take all day to just a few minutes…

2. Getting for more information as fast as possible, and it doesn’t take much time to find it

3. Talking and catching up with friends who are in oversees, it’s like they’re just around the corner and have never left.

4. Discovering an old school buddy from primary or secondary years, brings lots of memories and you can hoop up with the person again and be friends again

5. Looking for reviews of a product or service in advance of a possible purchase – its helpful to know about other stuff experiences when taking into account of something original

6. Most of us do not receive a handwritten birthday card like before, a bit of a sentimental-I tend to hold onto these things and loved the little thoughtful notes … precious. These days… Facebook or an email seems to do the trick- its impersonal man!

7. Sometimes talking to people you don’t even know – it’s very boring because they always ask who you are. Where do you come from? etc, it happened to me via facebook.

8. Forgot your password?” … thankfully just about every site is equipped to “reset” those gazillion passwords we accumulate.

9. Freedom of expression!! – I just love the fact that I can air my views, concerns and opinions with no consideration of censorship at all

10. I believe our life spray across group of social media networks… there is no such thing as secrets and don’t even try to keep anything to yourself… if its not on your page somewhere – its on a friend’s or somewhere

The elephant in the room.

We are all psychic in one way or another; Sometimes when I meet other people they tend to be a little tense in my presence, and sometimes when I'm opened people tend to tell me all sorts of things and that can be overwhelming.

 I have these powers to make people feel my presents wherever I am. I am like an elephant in a room; wherever I am my presence is felt by everyone. I am an elephant in a small room, with everyone trying to get me out but I am not moving I am here to stay and no one has the power to move me. Lol!

This is how a person should be; let people feel your presents. It’s all about dominance and shouting your voice for everyone to hear what you have to say. It’s all about finding a territory and staying in your territory and not allowing anyone to move you.

Some just can't handle the pressure.

 Life has its hard times and its good times. The thing with life is everyone has their own approach but some just can't handle the pressure. If you asked any teenager or young adult, probably anyone that has had a rough time, they would tell you at one time they probably consider suicide. It's a tough thing to grasp, tough subject to bring up, but it happens every day. More measures should be taken to stop it but sometimes you just wouldn't ever expect it.

A Month ago my best friend, one of the most amazing people you would ever meet on this planet, decided to end his own life. After only 24 years of age, a few days after his birthday he died, young and still full of life. I can't tell you why he did it, but forever it will make myself ask the ifs. I know nothing I could have done probably could have stopped it but there's always that thought, that what if, that makes you wonder. The reasons for most of the suicides are unknown, even with that note saying why. You never will totally understand why and that's a hard thing to grasp, well at least in my case.

I write this as tears of morning pour out of my eyes, flooding my lap with sorrow but I'm doing this to help me cope and cypher through my thoughts, and maybe come up with a good thesis on why. Truth is there is not good explanation, there isn't a logical reason. As I relive those times we shared I have a smile but it can't stop the pain I feel. The hardest part is that reminder that there will be no more days with my best friend, none. I only have those memories. Memories I am going to have for the rest of my life nonetheless, but never will there be a new memory. And that is one of the hardest things for me to even try to comprehend. As I think about how bad I'm feeling and how much I wish I could rewind the time, there are so many other people feeling the same way, thinking the same thoughts, wondering if they could have changed this terrible outcome. Truth is it can't be changed. We can't rewind time but we will always have those memories. GOOD BYEE MY FRIEND! “ NCEBAKAZI MADIKANE”